03/15/2023
Hi it’s me.. I’m back, kind of back, I don’t know we’ll see..
This was me on a high 2 years ago just right after the pandemic happened. It was a blessing to be in that position, that led up to many wins and successes in the next 2 years. I was doing really well, both personal life and career.
And then I fell into a slump late fall of last year. I got burnt out (which I continuously denied myself of it) and the passion in what I do faded slowly. Daily tasks were daunting to even think about - starting anything (and my day) was a drag. Waking up was easy, but getting out of bed would take me 4-5hours and it was mid day at that point. The cycle continued with only 4hours of daylight remaining. I almost gave up.
But I knew I had to sustain the business and slowly gain control of myself again. Upon reflection, I realized and accepted the fact that I was taking everything for granted. My relationship with people, photography, 2 years of accumulated wins, and even myself. Thinking that the next year will take care of itself.
I was humbled, experiencing almost all of that being stripped away from me. Crazy!
I wrote this a few weeks ago thinking I’m feeling better. Truth is, I was treading water. Taking one day at a time, not trying to rush back into things and accepting where I’m currently at in life. Spending time with friends and families helped a lot too.
Moving forward, it is going to be more about being intentional, practicing gratitude and appreciating who and what I have.
We can never have enough, but we can look back and see how far we’ve come and appreciate that.
To anyone feeling something similar, do know that you’re not alone in this. Be kind to yourself like you would be to others.