06/04/2023
It is difficult to live your authentic life unapologetically.
For the longest time, I have kind of followed the footsteps of others to see if I could see myself doing the same thing, and that has led me to be quite frustrated with life when things did not work out.
Being in your 20s is difficult. On one hand, you are trying to hold on to the last strand of being young and free and being able to make mistakes and start over again, and on the other hand, the responsibilities of the real world keep getting bigger and suddenly you start feeling torn between two worlds. At least that is how I have been feeling lately.
I was watching one of my favorite movies Wake Up Sid earlier today. Every time I watch this movie it literally makes me realize that I have to wake up and meet my responsibilities in the real world but more importantly it makes me think of the what-ifs. What if I tried harder to get myself into a media company and do something creative that would give me happiness? What if I tried working in Bangladesh and lived with my family for a bit? What if I went somewhere else to study instead of coming to Japan? The what-ifs are scary because I do not want to regret this life 10 years or 20 years later.
If you are in your 20s trying to figure life out, let me tell you this. It is not easy, and it will not get any easier. But while you try and figure life out, please do not forget to take short breaks in between. Drink a cup of tea and ponder about life or look outside the window to see the rainy clouds. Do what it takes for your soul to find happiness even in the chaos within your mind and in the world. I am also trying to do the same.