10/04/2024
Faith
I’ve been thinking about faith a lot this past week. I was asked several times if I had faith. I didn’t find an answer to that question, but that day I was so angry at the universe I couldn’t even come up with words to describe it.
Being raised free from dogmatic beliefs made me a free spirited person that never connected with strict religious views of the world.
Even so, I find it funny that when we listen to the word faith, we are conditioned to think about a superior entity that controls the ups and downs of life, however the dictionary describes faith as “great trust or confidence in something or someone”.
So I guess I do have faith, in a lot of things. I have faith in my friends – especially those that in these times of darkness checked up on me daily even if just to remind me to eat.
I have faith that the love I carry in my heart is a power source, even if it gets heavy to carry when grief decides to complement it.
If there’s love, it’s bound to meet up with grief someday, the stronger the love the harder it is to say goodbye.
But the truly important thing is the time spent between the first hello and the last goodbye, that’s the time and space where love truly shines.
I have faith that even if it doesn’t feel like it at the moment, I’ll be okay again.
I will be able to breathe calmly again and my heart won’t feel this heavy and wrecked inside my chest.
I just don’t know how long it will take.
🦊✨