03/29/2026
My regal lion. My silent shadow. My loyal defender. My old soul. My grumpy old man.
17 years ago today, in a step towards real adulthood (and perhaps an act of defiance to my parents), I went to pick out my very first kitten. Something I’ve been wanting my entire childhood but was never allowed due to my parents being “allergic”.
Even though there was one cute kitten sitting next to me with their paw on my leg, looking at me hopefully, I saw your face peeking at me from behind the couch. I don’t know what it was, maybe it was something in your expression, but I chose you.
Our first night together, I remember you hesitantly following me down the stairs, at a distance, but finally coming to the room after some encouragement, and you fell asleep snuggled up to my shoulder (one of few instances throughout your lifetime).
You were never the cuddliest cat, but you following me, sitting close by, always knowing where I’m at, racing to the entrance when I came home, tolerating me smothering you with affection, let me know you decided I was your hoo-man.
Having to say good bye to you after all these years feels like the end of an era, and I’m at a loss to how to even summarize what losing you means to me.
I’m sorry I failed you. If I could’ve saved you, I would’ve, a million times over. How cruel life is to have nursed you back from pancreatitis over new year’s, only to lose you to further complications of kidney disease, just a couple of months later. Even to the very end, you were such a fighter, and although it pained me to watch you stumble, I let you have your dignity and pick your final resting spot— at the top of the stairs where you loved looking out over your domain. I still feel your shadow everywhere.
Thank you for being such a sweet, big brother to all the kittens that came your way. Thanks for protecting me from Max when he was acting up. Thank you for loving and comforting me still, even to the very end, though you were the one suffering. I take comfort in knowing that you’re reunited with Achilles. I will love you forever and ever and miss you with all my heart. Until we meet again. My Shoko. ♥️
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