Sam Hewitt

07/09/2022

We underestimate the control and will power we can exercise.

06/29/2022

Getting sober and staying sober are two very different challenges. One I have easily accomplished, the other i have yet to maintain.

Today I am 9 days sober.

Medication does a tremendous job in even allowing me to take this on, but to maintain both good mental health and sobriety, I must change my lifestyle that will support both. Thats the most challenging part for me. I'm so comfortable in the way that I live, being alone to the point that its unhealthy, is a hard reality to face.

Time does make sobreity easier, but it doesnt make the urges go away. It doesn't make it any easier to sit alone with your thoughts.

I used alcohol to escape my thoughts, my pain, my loneliness, my reality. I am only 9 days sober but when the old parts of me resurface and I am faced with them once again, thats when the struggles hit the hardest. Thats when I am forced to sit back and bask in all those things i spent so much time escaping from.

Its in those moments that the urges hit full swing, when the passing thoughts of "just one more time" creep in. Just one more drink, just one more day that i dont have to think, one more escape. The reality is yes, i need one more time. Just one more time to stand up to those crippling thoughts and push forward. One more time of not giving up. One more day.

Last week something finally clicked for me. Its only been 9 days and I seriously wish i had done this six months ago. I already feel so much better and I know I have a long road ahead of me but I am looking forward to getting healthy and staying there.

(F**k va**ng too) 😤

06/26/2022

Several hundred people protesting against the overturning of Roe v. Wade yesterday for the second day in a row in DTLA.

06/26/2022

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06/24/2022

06/23/2022

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.

06/23/2022

The light fades and the journey is long.

06/22/2022

Grateful to the people who know me well enough to point out when I’m not acting like myself. Because I’m an idiot and will ignore s**t until it REALLY becomes a problem.