06/06/2024
Happy belated birthday to me! My birthday was yesterday✨
It’s been a while. I’ll be honest, I got a little lost. Photography can be so draining when you’re not in the right physical and mental space. Comparing yourself to others, becoming discouraged when the shoot you worked on for 8 hours got 2 likes, and getting accustomed to instant gratification can dim your light real quick. Photography has taught me that you better know your “why,” otherwise, you might lose yourself in the cycle of living for likes and engagement.
When instagram started to include TikTok features like reels, I’ll admit, that was the beginning of the end for me lol. I had no idea how to incorporate video into my pictures—I’m a photographer after all, not a videographer. So I fell off. I tried to pivot with the algorithm but I was getting so burned out that I just stopped. And gave myself the posting break that I needed. I had no idea that break would be something like 2 years but here we are lol
Every time I wanted to post, I’d get scared. I’d talk myself out of it before I could even get anywhere but I won’t anymore. I was scared to test out different things and concepts because I feared silence from the algorithm I was working so hard to understand so I didn’t post at all.
It was my birthday yesterday and all I wanted to do was a self portrait. I wanted to take pics of myself and explore a concept that has been on my mind forever. I’m tired of being scared. I’m tired of not knowing what to post because “what’s gonna do well???🤔🤔“ I’m tired of not wanting to post too many self portraits because “who wants to see that.” Smh. Why do we talk to ourselves so harshly when half the time, it’s just mean self doubt whispering madness in our ears? It’s crazy. So here’s my latest shoot. I like it and I hope you like it too. I’ll be posting the behind the scenes tomorrow 🥰
No more hesitating over here. Not at this new age I got yesterday. Not anymore ❤️
