07/15/2025
"Internal Peace of a Chaotic Mind"
It is intention that dictates outcomes.
Sure, effort is necessary but intention is the reason the effort is there. If one's conviction is strong enough, there is very little that can stand in the way.
The truth is, however, that conviction is an internal resolve to do the thing or, accomplish the task but it is easy to lose that driving force if one does not have resolve within themselves.
My mind has been a chaotic mess, and honestly, I find it is due to my lack of resolve.
After great deliberation over the direction of my future I have found my resolve once again...And this time, it will not be shaken.
I've made some great sacrifices since moving out Brookings, challenging ones but each has taught me how to climb the next step.
Crazy how being on the precipice of success can feel isolating and devoid of it's trappings. . . I think that's the point though really.
"Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.
After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water." - Zen Koan