La Loba

01/08/2024

Hey fam! I wanted to update you guys on my surgery details. I go in on January 17th for a implant procedure on my right breast. I've developed a seroma on that side and they are going to clean that out as well as some scar tissue from radiation. I will be out of work till Feb 1st. I am dissapointed that I have to have yet another surgery but we are calling this lucky #10!! Please send your prayers and good energy. Love you all!

12/20/2023

I speak of love as if I know it exists,
But I've yet to know this feeling of fulfilment.
I could scream into the abyss and be unsure of a reply,
As I tempt the demons of the lower tree, Encouraged by my emptiness.

My soul is ravaged by discontent,
My heart is a broken glass cup, patched up and glued together with promises that have no intention of being kept.

The wilderness knows my name
And whispers it's welcome,
Coaxing me to leave the light
And enter darkness.

Somewhere, faintly, I hear him calling to me.
Somewhere across the wind and clouds.
He, speaking in hushed tones,
Speaking in tongues,
He tells me he is looking for Venus.
He knows all of my titles.
He knows my scent.

And in those moments of hearing him
I am given peace.
For a while, I am at rest.
And I choose to close the lid,
To keep hope within the box
And not set the world on fire.
-Helen Demetriou

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12/15/2023

10/30/2023

"It was my first funeral...you were so beautiful, pale and mysterious, no one even looked at the co**se..." Gomez Adams...

10/18/2023

Hey sis,
I hope you know how massively I love you. I'm thinking right now of how you helped me move during my divorce, on your birthday, with no complaints at all. I'm thinking of the day I had my first chemo, on new years eve, and I just came home and collapsed on the futon in the living room and you wrapped yourself around me, I'm thinking of so many times when you helped with Lucy, were and are such a rock to her and I. I'm thinking of our trip to Peurto Rico and playing in the waves and just enjoying the pool and being together. I'm thinking of just how much you have shown me how to be. You have this quiet strength about you that is completely awe-inspiring to me. You are resilient. Please always know how much you mean to me and to Lou. Also, remember to love yourself as much as we do. Know your worth, and when you forget, I'll be here to remind you every time. I love you so, so much.

10/16/2023

Unleash your inner child.....and be a little wild

10/11/2023

One time around the sun without you, babe. I'll never stop telling our stories, ill never stop dancing and belly laughing, and ill never, not for one second, not miss you from the deepest parts of my soul. I love you, Macushla.

09/24/2023

"Fancy" dinner out followed by Adam's family at the Macon Little Theater. What a perfect evening with my Lou. Happy birthday sweet little love...my life, my heart and my joy.

09/20/2023

08/15/2023

I needed this today. I miss him beyond words. I started talking about him to a new friend earlier and then just broke down...solidly....for a while..in public...but that's ok...because tears and emotion and heartache keep him here. It keeps him alive for me. I love you Chris...and I'm keeping your energy present here on earth side. ♡ forever and always, love..pass

08/09/2023

I am so blessed to have my few close female friends. I see these women fighting with teeth through their childhood traumas, unhealthy coping mechanisms, and really sitting with their emotions to get to a healed place. I am in awe of you. I'm thankful for you. I see you. I am so, so thankful for each of you. I hope you feel all the love you deserve today. ♡