03/27/2026
It’s been a little over a year since I started working on Fabric & Fate. In the beginning, I didn’t tell anyone. I just needed a creative outlet—I felt like I was imploding under the constant stress of my job at the time.
Since then, I’ve learned something important about myself: I have ADHD, and I’ve likely had it my entire life. At first, I didn’t believe it. I didn’t fit the “classic” image I had in my head growing up. But I’ve come to understand that it shows up in different ways. For me, it’s the ability to hyper-focus and dive deep into things that genuinely interest me.
As I’ve continued learning about myself, I’ve realized that the way my brain works has never been my fault. It’s simply wired differently. My body doesn’t produce dopamine the same way, and that changes how I experience motivation, focus, and even passion.
If you’re wondering why I’m sharing this—it’s because, for most of my life, I’ve felt like I was constantly shifting from one version of myself to another. I’d go all-in on something, invest time, energy, and money into it… and then one day, it would just stop. No interest. No drive. Like a switch flipped overnight.
My wife calls it “cycling.” For a long time, I hated it. I thought something was wrong with me—that I needed to pick one thing and master it, because that’s what people are “supposed” to do. But that’s not how I’m wired. When the dopamine fades, so does the connection—and for a while, that made me feel like I was losing my mind.
This journey hasn’t always been easy for the people around me, but I’m incredibly grateful for the support I’ve received.
Right now, I’m building something that brings all of this together—a website that will serve as a portfolio for my photography and art, a blog to share more of my journey, a shop, and eventually a course I’m working on called “14 Days to Creative Flow.”
I’ve also started to recognize why I feel the need to step away from constant screen time and technology—even though it’s been my career. The fast, constant dopamine hits from it can be mentally and physically draining. And yeah, it’s a bit ironic that I’m using those same platforms to share my work and connect with others—but that’s the world we live in right now.
If you ever want to talk, connect, or just follow along, feel free to check out my page here. I’m also on Instagram and YouTube. My goal is for all of it to become an extension of what I’m building—a space centered around creativity, growth, and being real about the process.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope you have a great day.
And remember—listen to your mind, listen to your body. You know what you need. Be yourself, and make the most of this one life we have.
