11/05/2023
I’m so privileged to have you in my life Leila. You forever inspire me and the community around you. And seriously - how lucky am I to have now captured your fierce strength and power as a mother birthing all three of your babies into this world.
You can listen to empowering twin birth story on the podcast.
Raw and real thoughts and words from Leila below -
“Twins come early…
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Famous last words.
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I woke up every night after midnight and sobbed…
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Why haven’t I gone into labour?
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Why was I 41 weeks and still pregnant with twins?
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What do my babies know that I don’t know…
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If they wanted to be born at home why hadn’t I gone into labour?
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Do I wait?
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What if something happens? Will I ever forgive myself?
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Why aren’t I trusting my body? Why would something happen?
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Do they not want to be Pisces?
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Is 41+2 my number for giving birth?
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I can hardly stand up for 5 minutes at this point, how an earth am I going to labour and give birth?
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What do I do?
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Where is my line in the sand?
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Will I regret the decision I make either way?
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I made the hardest decision I have ever had to make.
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I drew my line in the sand and faced my biggest fear.
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I birthed in the system. And you know what… it was beautiful.
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I feel deeply proud of myself for fighting for me and my babies to have the birth that we wanted. A peaceful water birth in a space that didn’t want to let us birth that way.
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Do I regret my decision to walk into hospital to birth my twins?
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Not at all. I had the most incredible and empowering birth.
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Will I forever wonder what birthday my boys would have chosen if I let them do things themself?
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Absolutely, and I guess that’s the decision I have to live with.
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My birth story is live on the podcast if you’d like to listen.
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Thank you for your patience too, I know you were dying to hear the story. I just had a lot to process and wanted to feel ready when I shared 🫶🏽”