02/28/2022
I was always the extra sensitive child growing up, and I still am. "You feel things deeply" my mother would say. It's been a blessing and it's been a curse, bringing more heartache than my little human heart can handle. A blessing because of all the compassion that comes with it.
In that being said, the war happening in Ukraine has me broken. Trying to read about the devastation it brings makes me angry and feel helpless. My little daily worries and problems seem so ridiculous in comparison with what thousands of families are going through. And COVID hit our family so we are in full on isolation and going a bit crazy already. Again, what is it compare to the thought of not knowing if there will be a safe place to lay my head at night? If I will be able to feed my kids tomorrow? If my husband or brother or father will live to see another day? But that's not my point, as our worries are legitimate, even if they sound so small compare to others.
My point is: this is again a reminder that I am not in control and i don't see the big picture. You know who does though? God. Even in the mist of this chaotic broken world, He is still there, holding our tears in His hands, always listening to our cries, extending compassion in marvellous ways. This is a reminder for me that I don't need to try to make sense of it all. I don't have to live in fear of what will happen, I don't have to let anxious thoughts keep me awake at night. God sees it all. God knows it all. God is in control. Even when the whole world falls apart, He is still good, He is still there by our side, like a good good Father.
His love is all around us. You can hear by the roaring oceans, smell it in the first flowers of spring, feel it in the snowflakes falling on your cheeks, hear it in a baby's first laugh.
I am choosing to be that tree planted by the water that grows strong and beautifully. I will grow in His love and turn to Him, that's where my strength will come from. He is strong enough for all of us. His love is never ending, unconditional and simply amazing.
Turn to Him my friends, when this world screams louder and louder of its brokenness, He is still standing, unshaken and unchanged