06/30/2025
Been waiting on this little rainbow for a while! 🥹🥹 The storm was longer and harder than we ever imagined it’d be. Life threw a few plot twists in with three losses after Mav. Even after making it past the “safe point” with one,and going through that heart break over and over and again is probably the hardest thing I’ve done. (Not to mention I had to shoot a wedding the next day.. twice, after losing the baby 🥲) To overcome it all, keep hope and try again- a rollercoaster to say the least, emotionally and physically. But I let my body heal, tried my best with my heart, and here we are finally with a cute baby bump and Mav calling himself big brother! Mav has been my rock with this pregnancy, he knew there was a baby on the way before anyone. There was one night a while ago, I was saying goodnight to Mav and we were just snuggling in his bed. His room was dark with just one little nightlight on in the corner. While we were laying there he pointed to the dark black ceiling and said “mommy look”. I said- at what? He said “look at all the colours... It’s a rainbow mommy” i said oh? And he repeated” it’s a rainbow”. I felt my heart race a bit and said goodnight. The next morning i woke up and just had this feeling to take a pregnancy test. I had already taken a test that showed negative about a week prior and was bummed about it but had accepted it. While i was waiting on the test I could just hear Mav saying “it’s a rainbow mommy”. Sure enough, a positive! We were so excited. After about a week of excitement with the news, the anxiety started creeping in (if you’ve ever had a loss you know the heaviness of that anxiety) I was just sitting at the table in silence and feeling my head start to spiral. Mav came over to me and pointed to my stomach and said “baby in belly button” the immediate relief and just a feeling of knowing this baby is going to make it. He will never know how much all his little words have helped me to quiet all the worry and to not be scared to celebrate this pregnancy. All the moments have led to this one and I can’t wait to meet our little miracle, and I can’t wait to have the baby meet the best big brother in the world🫶🌈