20/08/2026
This morning, I watched our eldest collect his GCSE exam results (he was happy with his results). But the last few weeks , I found myself searching for signs that he was worried, struggling, or anxious. All the feels that I remembered having at his age. But they weren’t there, or at least not in the way I expected. He was properly calm & not pretending basically horizontal.
It caught me totally off guard, because it held a mirror up to how much weight I clearly carry from my own teenage years when good grades used to feel like they decided my whole life.
It was unnerving watching him care so lightly about something I assumed he should be worried about.
Let’s be honest 👀 I was clearly projecting! But after I got out of my own head I just felt an immense sense of pride. I honestly wish I’d had half his wisdom at 15. 😅
Back then I was full of angst, apathy, & secretly worrying about impressing my friends and family with a proper career aspirations. Sometimes, not necessarily consciously, I still feel like I need to prove myself to myself. To my husband, my parents, my old teachers.
Silly I know.
But not a year that passes where I don’t hear a little voice creep in before I open bookings for a photoshoot pre-sale, for my retreats and workshops.
What if this is the year no one books? What if I don’t sell out? What if this is the year where people catch me out. Yet every single year I smash the last years sales, sell out the next retreat I’ve dreamed up & continue creating, providing, growing.
And what I genuinely love is how much I have to keep constantly adapting, Nothing stay stays still for long, & neither do I. It’s exhilarating, & if I’m honest like fun a puzzle I get a kick our of having to keep figuring out, year after year. I love the challenge of it.
And I’m thankful.
Thankful for every one of you who shares my posts, talks about me in rooms I am not in, trusts me with their children, comes to me for guidance. And I’m thankful for my son for reminding me what quiet confidence actually looks like (& to randomly dance in public more often)
So that’s me today a little wiser, a little more content & endlessly grateful you’re all still here.