23/05/2026
There are times when life is overwhelming, it can feel as if we are drowning in the trials of life. I’ve been off my antidepressants since November- the first time in 15 years I have been free of them. It’s only been over the last few months I have realised how much of a cushion they gave me from the overwhelming weight of life. It would be easy to go to the GP and get back on them but I’m determined to stay off them.
I have noticed that since not using them how much more real life is, I’m genuinely more curious and interested in life I don’t feel as numb as I did. That numbness helped me deal with the lows and believe me I have been very grateful of it. Without them the busyness of my life has seemed so much more challenging, my anxiety has been rampant and my sleep very patchy to say the least.
However I am determined to take one step at a time to keep myself from sinking backwards. Recovery from mental health struggles is not linear, nor quick or, indeed, easy. While support from those around you is needed the only person who can make the recovery happen is the will of the person suffering.
I know I am stronger than I think, I have overcome so much, life has inevitable challenges and I rise to meet them, I will keep going forwards despite setbacks, I will not doubt myself.
In all the advice I’ve been given while battling my own mental health issues these words are the ones I lean on - One day at a time, if that’s too much, one hour, one minute, one breath - break the time down into what feels manageable and don’t be afraid to change the settings as you need. This black and white long exposure photography is made of the Gwelva steps in Marazion Cornwall.
