25/08/2026
Anyone else got a flaky memory?
One of the reasons I love taking photos of wildlife is that my memory isn't great. It never has been. So, my images are not only snapshots of the wildlife I've seen - they also help the encounters themselves stick in my brain. Details like the location, the weather, who was there with me and how the encounter made me feel all become embedded in the photos, as do other things that happen around the time they are captured.
Today's image not only brings to mind this lunchtime encounter with gorgeous roe doe Gamma on this day, 25 August, in 2023. I remember her browsing peacefully for a while before becoming increasingly frustrated as a steady stream of walkers and dogs prevented her from crossing into the next field. I photographed her with the summer sunshine on my skin without the slightest idea that, later that afternoon, I would receive the devastating news that my father had died.
Some memories become woven into an image, an encounter, a place - so tightly that they can never really be separated again.
That doesn't mean that I don't enjoy looking at these photos of Gamma but I do so while trying to remember how happy I was in that moment with her, rather than dwelling on what was to come later. It will always be bittersweet but I've slowly come to terms with it.
I'm also incredibly grateful that the deer were around when I was grieving. As I've said before, I believe the power of nature has a way of showing up when you need it most.
The British Deer Society - Official
Mammal Society
BBC Springwatch
Scottish Wildlife Trust