27/06/2025
So today is the day I never wanted to come.
My mums funeral.
There’s been mornings where I haven’t wanted to get out of bed. The non stop crying, the sleepless nights, the nightmares of mum shouting help, the feeling of her pinching me again. The constant need to make sure the people around me are doing ok even when my world feels like it’s crumbling.
No one prepares you on how to plan a funeral, no one tells you that the hardest part is the weeks in between and how to grieve.
The thought I will never be able to ring her or rant to her (she was like my therapist as well) the thought I’ll never hear her voice just pains me everyday!
This pic is one I will cherish…. It’s the most recent one from Mother’s Day as we took mum and dad out for food with us all and I told them I want to take photos even though it’s some of my early work.
Mum was a massive supporter of me doing photography and wanting me to pursue my passion! She helped out with packing orders from my personalisation business (which I no longer do) at Christmas and I had 50 orders to ship with no lighting at the office!
She was always there for people around her! Never one to complain about all her ill health and she battled through a lot!
She was everyone’s nana even if not related! She creating Halloween baskets for all my friend’s kids so they never felt left out if out with my kids trick or treating!
She was an inspiration to others and an incredible mum/nana!
📸 ❤️
