15/03/2026
In the UK it’s today, and it’s got me feeling nostalgic. 13 years ago I was a few months away from having my first baby and becoming a mum - and from discovering this instant feeling that life just began and all else before it was meaningless. For the last 13 years my life has been a real journey of very low moments and very high moments, but the real consistent glorious ray of sunshine literally shining in on me every day no matter how dark everything else was, was these two. They gave my life meaning beyond what I ever could have imagined. I remember the night Clara was born, the absolute shock as she was passed to me and realising nothing and no one on earth could have prepared me for that feeling, and that nothing - not even winning a billion pounds - could ever match that feeling. As she was born, so was I. And they’ve been my reason to stay alive, get up every time life knocked me down, smile, and be the best version of myself I could be, every day since.
They were also my reason for ever falling into photography. It was a combo of 1. Being someone who’d ALWAYS loved cinema and storytelling and photography… I actually really wanted to be a film director and make films (and still do!) 2. NEEDING to do something as I was newly divorced, financially at zero and tbh just lucky to be alive after nearly ten years of DV. And 3. Having these incredible muses to look at day and night, to inspire me and encourage me and who’s every move was one I wanted to document and to bare witness to - to have a record of how it all felt to then show someone one day. Maybe one day I can share those memories with someone who loves us, and who’ll wish they’d been there, but who can see those photos that I took in that moment and feel it. All I ever really wanted was to share that love and awe, it was too much for me to hold alone. In some ways, photography in my single mum life, and in my phoenix moments of being birthed from the ashes, helped me feel less alone - like I could feel the eyes of those I’ve not yet met were looking through my lens with me.. time travelers.. so I had to do the moments justice.. quite magical really! Poetic even. ❤️🔥