24/07/2025
Today 47 years ago I arrived here. At 10lb, a whopper first child to my darling mother Una and still a rather large human with a big head by all accounts. It’s only been four hours but I love being 47 so far. Being young never felt like the right fit.
The last ten years have been a s**t show streamed in survival mode - a fragrant melange of curve balls, hurdles and pivots. I closed my fashion label, six months later lost a partner, lost a parent, moved home from London after 15 years, felt completely alienated and fish out of watery, moved into a new career in a pandemic as all the jobs were drying up and fell in love with a man going through his own brand of mid life nuclear chaos.
At times it felt like everything I touched turned to dust but that dust has alchemised to iridescence. It was ten years since Ish passed in June and it was a real moment. I finally feel happy, content and home but yeah, that took a long time didn’t it. Jesus 😐
As each year turns over into the next I discover new age freckles, wobbles, wrinkles, kilos where there weren’t any and my hair is going adventurously silver. I’m lit up by my amazing partner, family I call friends, friends i call family and my dog is a legend. I feel lucky but I’ve also worked damn hard for it.
Growing old is a blessing, not a given and that warrants celebration. It’s not a BIG birthday but it feels like a big one for me so this weekend we’re celebrating with“Marionfest” - slightly narcissistic? Perhaps. A little self indulgent? Yes. Do I care? No 💅
Always remember to count your blessings ✨
*images in no particular order of favouritism