06/03/2026
I’ve never been good at goodbyes.
When I was around 20 years old I got one of my favorite songs tattooed. It reads: every time we say goodbye I die a little. Sad I know, but that’s how I’ve felt about parting ways for as long as I can remember.
Weddings taught me how to deal with goodbyes. My clients taught me how to make space in my heart for them, and leave that space open, in case they’d ever want or need to return. Instead of feeling like my heart was full of empty rooms, it started feeling like it was full of overflowing memories.
Now I have to say goodbye again, to a part of me. And it was honestly one of the hardest things I had to do. Choose me.
Almost 5 years ago I was diagnosed with Lupus, and it has been a continuous struggle to stay healthy, to care for my body and give it space to rest.
A few years back I was also diagnosed on the autism spectrum and life slowly started to make sense. I started feeling like I might be able to keep living, and fighting to live a happy and healthy life.
I was afraid, before I decided to quit weddings, I thought that people would judge or not hire me because of these 2 huge parts of the human being I am.
I started feeling less afraid to live my truth, less afraid to look for other work opportunities, less afraid to live a different life.
Wedding photography came to me when I needed it, it was almost gifted to me, I felt after having my heart broken. And I know it will always be there, a room full of overwhelming memories.
I’ll always have photos like these, that mean so much to me… photos where I can see people, photos where I understand facial expressions, because they were true, genuine, real, what ever you want to call them. Photos that remind me of my grandpa and his obsession with family photos, photos that remind me we are just people, kind people.
Thank you for everything. And yes, I will eventually find the emotional energy to share photos I love with you, photos I’ve never shared because I was unsure about what they meant to me.
Lizzie and Rodrigo, una infinidad de gracias, because I saw kindness in your eyes, so true it made me believe the world will change if we work together.