29/09/2024
Beautiful as it seems, this world has a lot that is bad. Lately I find myself in arguments within my own mind as I try to find rationality to contradictions in opinions (within myself).
Oftentimes I end up feeling bad for the bad.
For that reason, I sympathize with people who grew up feeling guilt more than freedom, condemnation instead of forgiveness and hatred more than love. The contradiction rises when I tell myself, “but Eby, that’s what made them who they are”.
You know what they say “everything happens for a reason”, well I’m a little bit sick of hearing that when it comes to justifying wrongdoing. But then again what’s “wrong”?
Know what I mean ? It can all just go around and I get lost in the loop where everything is exactly where it should be and all that is left with is my own mind, decisions, actions and the biggest enemy that I face everyday “me”.
“I’m fine”, a phrase my mouth automatically
utters has had an immense influence on how I see myself in this world. So to negate this I’ve had to allow myself to tell myself all my human feeling is valid, but nay, I consider myself to be a robot. Thus a further contradiction.
I admit I don’t know what the heck I’m upto, and that’s a boat that I know a lot of people can get on board with. Confusion is a friend, pointlessness is an absolute point and as Plato suggests, I only know one thing that is absolute, I know nothing.
On a positive note, as you can see in the photo, there will be a light on the path. Even as you maybe journeying into the wild, uncertainty or the darkness, there will be some kinda guidance, but listening and acknowledging that is the hard part.
Thanks to Lucía Mantiñan for giving me an opportunity a while ago to experiment with some photoshoot, and this was my chaotic favourite.