08/03/2021
"My breastfeeding journey this time around has been a total roller coaster of emotions. I was so confident that because I was successful the first time around I’d have ZERO issues on round two. I couldn’t have been more wrong.
Ainsley was born with a full tongue tie AND an upper lip tie. We were able to have them both released at 9 days old, but those 9 days were the LONGEST, most painful and emotionally draining days of my life. She lost so much weight, and it hurt the both of us no matter what I tried to do. All of this in the middle of COVID at it’s all time highest. So here I am, 3:30am on a Saturday night, googling a local IBCLC near me. Adding in “Needed ASAP” or whatever verbiage would get one to help us as soon as they could. I came across Nest Collaborative. They’re online based IBCLC’s. I figured there’s nothing to lose so why not. Scheduled an appt for 10:30am the next morning. They bill your insurance directly, but if insurance doesn’t cover they DO NOT balance bill. WHAT??? That’s so awesome of them!! Ladies! This woman changed my life that day. She had my husband run to the store for ni**le shields (we did what we could to avoid but Ainsley couldn’t even lift her tongue off of the floor of her mouth) while Ainsley and I were on video with her. She was so gentle and informative and all around patient. And Ainsley latched. I cried. It was like an entire weight was taken off of my shoulders and my baby can eat. The raw emotion I felt was crippling and to feel it lessen within seconds of her latching was just everything I needed.
I bring you to today, at 7 months old, and she is a breastfeeding champ. I am blessed this time around to be home with both of my children so naturally she is my little momma’s girl. She will not take a bottle of any kind. I’m pretty sure I have tried close to every single one on the market. She makes herself gag as soon as it touches her lips and then looks at me and smiles. I joke often and tell everyone her first words are going to be “boob Ma!”
The struggles are hard. At times I look back and wonder how I got through them. How didn’t I give up? Truth is, I have no idea. But what I do know is that the end result is the most rewarding and loving experience I could have ever imagined. It was worth every tear, and sleepless night to get to where we are today.
~Amanda A., mother of Ainsley, 7 months"