04/06/2020
As much as I love my husband, being home 24/7 with him hasn’t always gone smoothly these past 3 weeks. We feel safe in our little family nest. However this nest feels too small. The situation is made even more stressful with frequent nighttime wakings, stir crazy kids and trying to get real work done with littles underfoot.
One thing I didn’t expect during this time was to growing closer to my spouse. At first there was shock and I felt resentment at the increased strain having all three children full time and running the house would be. But with heartfelt long talks, acknowledgement of our new roles, and deciding together to approach this temporary challenge as a team player, this weird reality is slowly becoming the new normal.
I now look to my partner as my rock with whom I can come to when I’m feeling anxious about the world and when all my inquiries and jobs have dried up. Most importantly he lifts me up when our thoughtfully laid out plans are put on hold and I let a scarcity mindset get in the way of my dreams for 2020.
This time to reflect has reminded me why I love weddings sooooo much and that I need to believe in abundance. As a hopeless romantic, every time I photograph a ceremony I renew my vows and draw strength in the fact that I am so incredibly blessed to not have to face this life alone. I draw strength from love, from my faith in knowing that people will come together and we will get through this.
