06/06/2024
In the genesis of our business endeavor, I was fearful of things that would threaten my availability to work.
I watched an saw how seemingly motherhood would rob creators of their ability to create and as a result I was cautious to embark into motherhood.
However, in life's good 'ol ironic fashion, I was due in the very month I didn't want to birth... November. Not only was I taking on a new role that had to potential to take all my time but now, I was starting off on the wrong foot by becoming a mom and obligated to a annual birthday celebration during the busiest month possible.
I wasn't wrong. Motherhood has taken a LOAD of my time and energy and there really isn't any sign of slowing down. However, the ability to manage both and humility (in my case) to ask for assistance has increased and in that way, things have gotten a little easier, or at least far more manageable.
To be honest, it ebbs and it flows and I think I'm in a flow but tomorrow I might be in an ebb. Who really knows.
But what I do know is that the trade off is worth it. I still have my career and my love for shooting. I've learned that for me, it's important to be a mother AND a photographer. And with a little help, I CAN do both and do them both well!
These past 7 months have been crazy and there was a time where we were making strides to absolve Rebekah Paul Photography into a faceless more generic brand.
We still purchased the domain name and I have that option in my back pocket because I'm not above burnout nor will I let work be a priority over my child and/or future children. But for now, I'm grateful I have what I need to carry on; I have family, a supportive husband, a wonderful nanny who my son loves, the drive to still want to create, and the gall to think that I can do it all (with some minor tweaks and lots of help!).
