09/19/2023
This morning I glanced in the mirror and thought “Wow, I’m gorgeous.” And that thought actually startled me.
Because it was REAL.
It wasn’t just some affirmation I was saying aloud to try and FEEL this way. And I wasn’t immediately picking apart the “flaws” or things I could improve on.
And not only was I actually HAPPY at what I saw in the mirror, I had a spark of attraction for myself. Like, a little buzzing in my belly that made me go WOW.
I truly woke up like this. I hadn’t yet washed my face or brushed my teeth. I wasn’t wearing any makeup. And my hair was wild.
But still… that spark. And it made me feel awesome in my wildness. In my natural state. And the older I get, the more I’m embracing this wildness; my natural self. And the more I DO, the more badass I actually feel. Not because I’m embracing these things, but that I’m embracing my actual SELF.
And it made me wonder… at what age do we stop seeing ourSELVES in the mirror, and start picking apart our pieces, searching for “flaws?”
But here’s the secret that I wish I would have learned a LOT earlier in life: you WILL find what you are actively searching for. And you will miss what you aren’t.
So yes, I could be looking at the heavy bags and thinning skin under my eyes. I could point out the lines that deeply crease my forehead. And the grey streaks in my hair that refuse to hold dye. Yes, all those things are there, and are a very real part of me.
But they don’t define me or my beauty. They are merely pieces of my body, and they are not my “flaws.” They just are. Just like I’ve got 2 arms, and 2 legs, and a head, and a butt, and so many other PIECES that make up my actual physical being…
And the less I pick apart my pieces, the more I start seeing my WHOLE self.
And start seeing myself as WHOLE.
selfie from this morning. No makeup, no special lighting, no filter. Just ME.
