06/23/2021
Sara Ableson Photography
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL BDAY WISHES. Always get so suprised by the generosity of spirit☺️And now looking at life pre-2020 has the extra sting! So... as much as I wanted to skip my bday this year I thought let me dive into YOU ALL and the validation-having been in your world at some as an entertainer! It was like a kind of kaleidoscope mirror of many past creative (and not) incarnations. It’s hard to look at pics of oneself for too long And ever the realist when it comes to my own vanity and the biz of SHOW- I was tempted to post this pic of when I was on tour and these photogs caught me as I rolled out of bed.. maybe another time🤯Instead outtake from a lil pop music vid, a song I wrote called UH HUH. Summer crush jam (AND cuz my Mom was talking today about getting me balloons!) As I was sick of looking at myself today, I do have a tendency to “destroy it allI” the expectations of image.. ALAS as I prep for a week of night filming- Some words of reflection... I learned a lot this past year about what it trully means to take care of my heart, my head, My EXPRESSION. Like a lot of you I am still acclimating. I’ve always been a very empathetic person. But when do you treat your inside thought patterns, real or imagined shortcomings with more care? MORE AWARENESS of the DE EVOLUTION that “human thinking” goes toward, and create new mental patterns new was of function going forward? When do you offer understanding compassion to another who is acting out, but also say I should give more of that to myself? When do you fully dive into LIVING FULLY NOW? Why I mention The pictures is no matter how good you do or start a day The mental wiring has a tendency to devolve Into what I call the “HAVE NOTS”. It all should have gone differently. If only... And I should be this.. I wish that... Failures galore! A masterpiece of failings! What one should be... at this new age. Whelp I am here! And AWARE THAT I AM. 🙆🏻♀️Survived another year Of UNimaginable loss hurt, failings. ALIVE in the certainess of uncertainty. Less friends but stronger friendships. Leaning into feeling empty! But hey... creating has been super fun of late. 🪐🎬🎤🔮🖤❤️🤍