SpiderMeka Portraits

05/06/2026

Your comments last week helped me make at least one decision.

Two, actually.

I’m keeping the name that sings to me… AND I don’t have to choose a direction other than what I already am.

Thank you.

And I forgot to mention that everyone who mentioned “Unbeautifying” remembered with no problem that the name was “Unbeautifying.”

No one got it wrong.
Or mispronounced it.
So… I’m taking that as a win that it will catch on.

05/01/2026

What do you do when you don’t have everything fully figured out?

I don’t know… But the learning part, the unclear, the in between space… This is the juicy exciting part where magic happens. I’m here for it.

12/11/2025

Calm Truth 6:
Confidence is a Renewable Resource.

We don’t have to feel like it’s earned… or that it’s out of character, especially in a certain area.

We are simply disconnected from the environment we’re facing — often because of stress, overstimulation, or old beliefs about how we “should” appear.

Confidence returns when the nervous system feels safe again.
When we feel connection.

That’s the work of “Calm”:
Helping you to reconnect with the confidence you already have.
Even if you don’t recognize it’s there.

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If this resonates, Calm Before the Camera goes deeper.

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12/10/2025

Gratitude moment.
I’m sitting here in my cozy blanket, still a bit tired but buzzing… letting all of this marinate.

Thank you every message, every note of encouragement, and every “congratulations” sent in the middle of your own busy day.

“Calm” is out in the world, and I’m exhaling, just like I”m guiding others to do.

Thank you for celebrating this with me.
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12/03/2025

Stop saying you’re not photogenic.
The solution isn’t changing your features — it’s changing your connection.

If tension is your go-to when the camera comes out, Calm Before the Camera gives you Seven Truths to help you breathe, connect, and show up as your real self.

Feel the difference the next time someone says, “Smile.”

💫 Learn more: link in bio

12/02/2025

I almost didn’t do it.

I start plenty of projects that I don’t finish.
I thought my timeline was naïve.
I fell behind in my own schedule quickly.
I wildly miscalculated the amount of work it took… and my bandwidth.
I doubted why I ever thought this would be useful.

Then the phone rang. Not a text. A call.

Someone who is super intelligent called me to photograph her, but she was panicking and overwhelmed. She asked was it ready yet because she wanted it immediately.

Another said she would pay me to just come sit in her house and record it because my voice and what I had to say relaxed her so much.

A photographer expressed his gratitude for me creating it and said he can’t wait to share this with his clients.

More people kept popping up.

Someone brilliant who freezes.
Someone charismatic who chokes.
Someone stunning who panics.
Someone who said, “I feel ridiculous in photos.”
Someone who whispered, “I’m confident everywhere else… except here.”

Each one of them said some version of: “I need this. I wish I had this sooner.”

Each one of them affirming that “Calm” isn’t just a good idea. It’s a necessary guide.

I started to feel brave making it. 

I’m guessing you’ll feel brave, too, after all the myths we’re about to bust… stresses we’re about to release… expressions we’re about to make… outer layers we’re about to redefine… excuses we’re about to destroy… and ease we’re about to create.

It’s done and ready for you now. 

Tomorrow, the Seven Truths can be accessed.

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12/01/2025

Catherine Johns had her first photo session with me in 2018. 

To say she wasn’t a fan of being photographed is an understatement. She’s a connoisseur of professional stance and intentional energy, but preserving a single moment was harder for her. Relatable?

Catherine came to see me for some updated photos 12 days ago.

She experienced “Calm” during the week leading up to her session.

I will never forget the difference in her this time around.
“Softer” because defense was gone.
“Playful” because she gave herself permission.

Maybe she didn’t suddenly love the camera, but she did feel safe.
More connected to her movements.
More connected to the space she stepped into.
More “relaxed.”
More ready.

This is what “Calm” does.

Listen to her own words.

*Calm Before the Camera launches Wednesday, Dec 3, 2025 on spidermeka.com.

 

12/01/2025

Confidence creates presence.

On a scale of “Bring it! My phone is full of selfies!”
to “I’d rather have a root canal,”

How confident are you in front of the camera?

If you lean more towards daring dentistry, how do you gain confidence?

Presence doesn’t come by just posing.
Or by luck.

It comes from focus.
From grounding.
From remembering TRUTHS about your body, your features, and your personality.

This is why I created “Calm Before the Camera.”

Not to teach you how to perform, but how to show up as your confident self, without outside (or internal) pressures.

Launching Wednesday.

12/01/2025