06/22/2026
I am beginning to believe that healing doesn’t happen in grand gestures. Sometimes it happens on a random night out with an unexpected friend.
This weekend reminded me of something I had forgotten.
People listened when I spoke!
They looked at me instead of their phones!
They laughed with me, asked me questions, and genuinely seemed interested in what I had to say!
Maybe I was just the “new person” in the room, the shiny new toy everyone hadn’t met before: but honestly, after everything I’ve been through, I’ll take the reminder.
For so long, I convinced myself that maybe I was boring. Maybe I wasn’t fun anymore. Maybe I was too much, or not enough. After spending so many years in relationships where I felt unseen, unheard, and eventually left behind while they built a life that no longer included me, it’s easy to start believing those things about yourself.
But this reminded me that none of that is true.
I’m not boring. I’m not dull. I’m not lazy. I do know how to laugh. I do know how to have fun. I do have qualities that people are drawn to.
The difference is that I need to be around people who are kind and caring to me. People who make me feel safe enough to be myself. When you’re constantly protecting your heart, it’s hard to let your personality shine. But when you’re with people who genuinely care, it’s amazing how much of yourself comes back.
Thank you for standing beside me, for believing in me when I struggled to believe in myself, and for reminding me that there are still good people in this world.
I’m sorry I can’t always be more right now. Healing isn’t a straight line, and some days are still incredibly hard. But your patience, your encouragement, and your friendship have meant more than you probably realize.
Thank you for seeing me; for all that I am, all that I’ve survived, and all that I can still become, even on my worst days!!
Maybe this wasn’t just a night out.
Maybe it was the first time in a long time that I remembered who I am and I know how great she really is!!