09/16/2024
You would have been 15 years old today. Every year this date is the hardest. I remember coming home from school and me and Jermaine staying up until 11 at night waiting for either my mom or Warren to come home. When warren finally came home but mom wasn’t there. He sat us down and told us our mother was in the hospital cause she was sick. We found out you were born. Another member of the family we was going to have with us. Then sadness was felt all over the room when he told us you passed away. The tears couldn’t stop flowing for hours. I didn’t want to go to school I wanted to go to the hospital to be with my mom and to at least hold you. But I couldn’t I had to play it off. Within my years afterwards of being in school. Between suicidal ideations and not caring what people was saying after you died was the hardest. For the longest I blamed myself as the first born asking why you and not me. We all was in the same position being born earlier than predicted and having to beat the odds. But you still proved that God is real and survived 2 hours and 12 minutes to show that he is real. Keep watching over me through out this journey Derrick. I love you and I miss you. 💕🙏🏾😇
