11/08/2024
I have a lot of news to share and I’ve written and rewritten this ten times ✨
Let’s start at the beginning: We’re expecting a baby boy this spring, maybe even for my birthday. And it will be the best gift I could’ve asked for. The emotions of fear and hopelessness that had lingered within me for the last two years have finally led us here, and it’s still hard to comprehend at times that he’s real. Every doppler check is the happiest moment of my life all over again.
I constantly wonder about who he’ll be, what will his hair look like, what color are his eyes? I hope he has little curls like his daddy, I hope he’ll come home with bugs in his pockets like me. And at the same time I’m terrified — how does one care for and mold an entire human being? How am I [at all] qualified for this? I was top of my class, I loved chemistry formulas, I was a whiz at calculus, I could answer any trivia on Harry Potter or Tolkien lore — but creating an entire person and keeping him healthy and safe? This is much harder than any test I ever had to take, it’s ridiculously challenging to study for, and no one’s grading me but God himself. And yet, it’s been my life’s dream.
And that brings me to part 2 of this major announcement, regarding my other dream. When I first started out in photography 5 years ago, I actually initially took it on as a side income. I had gone to a fine arts school and graduated with a degree in children’s illustration, published my own book, designed and sold numerous freelance bodies of work, and taught as an art instructor for 4 years. Photography was, at first, a hobby that I’d hoped to make a little bit of extra pocket change from, and it grew into something so much more than I ever could have imagined. It put food on my table, it paid my bills despite Covid, and after several long years, it helped me get qualified to buy a home with my husband. It gave me the stability I needed to get to here, to have a little boy forming inside me. YOU all were a piece in the puzzle that helped me get to this point, and I’m eternally grateful.
But, with this immense news comes big change. [NOTE: Continued in comments, too long!] ⬇️