04/11/2026
⚠️Vulnerable post ahead. Proceed with caution ⚠️
March tried to take me out. And honestly? It almost had a case.
Within the span of a few days, I lost my close friend Su, who was based in Türkiye. Got dumped by someone I genuinely cared about, who was figuring out what they wanted for themselves. (Respect the journey, hate the timing.) And got a test result that had my doctor wanting to look closer, just to rule some things out. All in the same week. Back to back to back. The universe said “here’s a combo meal you didn’t order” and slid it right across the counter.
I spent a lot of time alone in my loft spiraling into my own head. Did I miss signs? Could I have done something differently? Should I call my attorney about a will? (That last one is still on my actual to-do list. Hi, Hershel, if you’re reading this.)
But honestly? This isn’t even close to the hardest thing I’ve survived. Life has handed me some genuinely brutal chapters. Losses that gutted me. Relationships that broke me down to nothing. Starting over so many times I lost count, in different cities, different countries, different versions of myself. There were seasons I didn’t think I was going to make it through.
And every single time, without fail, my work saved me. My humans saved me.
We belly laugh, joke around, have a great time, and every single problem I have on my plate just... vanishes. I don’t know how to explain it except that it works, every time, without fail.
They don’t know they’re saving me. But I feel it every single time.
So to every human who has trusted me with their love, their body, their brand, their joy, over these 19 years: thank you. You have poured into me more than you will ever know. I genuinely don’t know where I’d be without you, and I don’t want to find out.
I’m okay. Getting better every day. Can’t wait to see you out there.