06/09/2026
We keep romanticizing things that are slowly wrecking us.
Lust is hunger. It ravages out of vulgar desperation. The kind of hunger that will make you eat poison if you’ve been starving long enough.
I used to think lust was mostly a sexual thing. But it’s more of a heart posture and worship problem.
Lust says, “What can I get?” Love asks, “What can I give?” It doesn’t just show up in what we desire, it shows up in what we demand.
To be validated.
Satisfied.
Noticed.
Chosen.
Served.
Seen.
The longer I’ve been on my walk with Christ the more I’ve learned the difference between love that serves and love that wants to be served. I’ve found both living inside my own heart at one point or another. In conflict, in disappointment – all the places where my flesh wants to reach for comfort more than it reaches for Christ. It’s an internal battle with an externally fed world. The struggle lives and breathes within the quiet wrestling match between our flesh and Spirit.
The part of me that wants instant gratification versus the part of me being taught steady faithfulness. The part that wants to be filled versus the part learning how to pour itself out. The part that wants to be served versus the part learning how to serve. Lust is always reaching for more while love is learning how to freely give. One crushes – the other produces oil.
There are plenty of moments when I want others to meet needs that only God can satisfy. That’s part of why following Jesus can feel so costly. He isn’t just asking us to stop doing sinful things, He’s asking us to die to ourselves and rid our hearts of lust – all encompassing.
Love costs something – and it cost Christ everything.
Somewhere between my desires and my obedience, that battle continues. Some days beautifully. Some days painfully. Some days full of joy. Some days full of grief. Those things coexist on a journey toward a deeper relationship with Him.
What a precious thing that Christ continues teaching us – that what the flesh calls freedom often leaves scars..and what the flesh calls sacrifice ends up leading to true freedom and love.