06/26/2025
It’s been a while. ⛅️
This session brought life back into my lens, and it showed me a tangible reality of how two people’s love can bloom into a family.
Truthfully, photography has always felt like pressure. I love the art — the capturing, the creating, the connection. But turning it into a job? It became a burden to me; and for a while, I didn’t have the margin to carry the demands that came with it.
This past year forced me to slow down. My mental health took a HARD dip. My life was barely holding on by a thread, my marriage went through intense trials, my relationships shifted drastically and then, completely unexpectedly at possibly the worst timing, I found out we were expecting our first baby (our daughter is making her arrival at the end of the summer).🌷 What a whirlwind.
These months have taught me a lot—about what trusting God really means, about the dichotomy of grace and striving, about what creativity looks like when it’s not wrapped in deadlines and my own perfectionistic expectations, about suffering and gratitude. The Lord has tested me in unthinkable ways, JUST to show me that he wants me to actually live in full dependence on Him. In the words of Jackie Hill Perry from a random podcast, “OH. You really want me to DIE.” 😆
I wish I could say I’ve learned it all and came out with some grand revelation and a declaration of “arriving”, but I’m still in the thick of it. I’m figuring out how to live. How to regulate my nervous system. How to be a wife to my incredibly faithful and patient husband. How to prepare for motherhood??? What even is that. How to trust God with finances, with friendships, with my mental health, with my literal life and death which are both in His sovereign hands.
I’m still sorting out what photography looks like for me in this season and beyond. To be honest I have no idea what’s to come. I’m not walking away, but I am holding it differently than before.
I’m so grateful for the people who’ve trusted me with their memories, and for those who have stuck around, even in the long silence. I’m so thankful for this session which reminded me why I started.
More to come. 🤎