Jesse Felker Media

12/08/2025

The sun does come up. Didn’t quite believe it then.

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06/12/2025

40ºF above the clouds this morning

06/08/2025

It was quite the struggle making it back to the PNW, but god damn was it worth it. The struggle continues, but I’m here.

At the bottom of this mountain, my engine was severely overheating. Replaced the water pump and thermostat on the side of the highway, nothing changed, most likely meaning my head gasket(s) are gone. Climbed the mountain anyway, one inch at a time. Lost reverse gear upon arriving at this spot maneuvering into a level location.

Going to wait it out for the month and just enjoy this view.

04/30/2025

Perpetually between complacency and anxiety, when driving a dinosaur through landscapes.

04/30/2025

Between the sidewinding mountain road are chutes and ladders

04/24/2025

the relentless passage of time really f***s me up sometimes

why am i were i am

04/10/2025

Being homeless is a spectrum, and I’ve been dealing with the opposite end from myself more often.

Just the last few days I’ve had a generator stolen and found a family of dogs living in an abandoned car.

Many areas of public land are being closed to camping, and business owners are far more on edge when people show up in a vehicle you live in full time. People stay too long and trash places constantly, but it has accelerated lately.

There has also been a lot of sunshine for power and being outside, and the heater only runs for a few minutes in the morning just before I crawl out of bed.

04/01/2025

Sometimes I camp when the road stops roading

03/22/2025

03/08/2025

Waking up to multiple inches of snow on steep mountain roads is a bit unnerving, even though I am always fully prepared for the worst and can stay stranded for well over a month. During winter, it only takes a minute to find snow when ascending into the forest leaving the plowed streets of town.

Sliding off into a ditch and getting stuck isn’t too bad, but these tuna canned vans certainly cannot survive even the gentlest tip over. Ask me how I know.

Sometimes the ORM assessment is to just stay put. Being cold and running out of fresh meat and produce is far better than losing the entire house.

Rationing diesel heater hours and bundling up. Boiling and filtering snow for water. Turning off the power to conserve generator fuel during dark sky days. Listening to the NOAA radio for weather updates. Ice cold baby wipes each morning. Condensation freezing the corner of your pillow to the wall. The ice cold toilet seat.

The taste of freedom is bittersweet during this season.

Sometimes I inevitably have to take the chance and find my way down. Dirt roads aren’t too bad, especially if it’s untouched, and the piled up snow can actually help slow your descent. You can get some grip with the heavy weight of the van and the rough texture of the ground. What’s really scary is frozen pavement with snow on top, there’s just no traction in a steep and sharp corner.

Very soon, however, I’ll be lucky enough to start complaining about the heat.

02/25/2025

Together for 12 years. I miss you a lot. 💔

Thank you for being a part of all my life changes, adventures, and comforting me on my darkest days.

Annabelle was a sweetheart and an amazing best friend.

Laid to rest in the forest of the PNW where we spent so many years exploring together.