09/03/2026
This caption is a whole BOOK, and I mean every single word of it. 😂 But today God humbled me with a realization I genuinely wish I’d learned sooner, so if you’ve ever prayed, “God, please provide,” read this one. 🤎
On my way to the gym this morning, I had a really good phone call with a guy I look up to so highly in this industry, not only because of his work, but because of his faith and the way he carries himself and his business.
And somewhere in that conversation, something clicked.
“God will provide.”
That phrase gets thrown around so loosely and casually nowadays, and honey, I’m just as guilty of saying it without really stopping to think about what it means.
Is it a true statement? Absolutely. Ain’t no doubt.
But today I realized something about myself:
I can’t keep asking God to provide while ignoring my responsibility to be a good steward of what He has already provided.
And whew. Talk about stepping on my OWN toes. 😮💨😂
I know I have a lot of other business owners and self employed people who follow me, so y’all know exactly how much faith it takes to live on an income that is never guaranteed.
Some weeks you can live high on the hog, and the next week you might be checking the McDonald’s app to see if you’ve got enough points for a McDouble. 😂
That’s just the reality of self employment. There are busy seasons and slow seasons, and you don’t always know what the next week or month is going to bring.
And if I’m being completely transparent, there have been times when a bill was coming up and I was praying HARD.
“God, please provide.”
“Please let bookings come in.”
“Please send an overflow.”
“Please make a way.”
And when the phone stayed quiet and the bookings didn’t immediately come pouring in, I would start wondering why God seemed so silent.
But today, something clicked.
I started thinking about everything God had already provided.
The busy weeks.
The bookings.
The unexpected money.
The months when I had more than enough.
The paid travel.
And then I had to ask myself a harder question:
What did I do with it when I had it?
Because if I’m telling the truth, sometimes I spent it carelessly.
Fast food. Concerts. Tattoos. Random things I wanted simply because I had the money at that moment.
Then the next bill cycle would roll around, business would slow down, and suddenly I’d be scraping the bottom of the barrel wondering where God’s provision was.
And that realization humbled me.
Maybe God hadn’t failed to provide for me at all.
Maybe He had provided plenty, and I needed to learn how to better manage what He had already placed in my hands.
Now THAT will preach to yourself. 😂
And before somebody takes this somewhere I absolutely did not take it: I am NOT saying every financial struggle happens because somebody was irresponsible. Don’t reach baby.
Life happens. Emergencies happen. Business slows down. Unexpected expenses come out of nowhere. Sometimes circumstances truly are outside of our control.
I’m speaking about me and what I realized about my own choices.
God has provided for me time and time again.
But trusting God to provide doesn’t mean I have no responsibility for what I do with the provision once it gets here.
And maybe sometimes the answer to a prayer isn’t another blessing falling into your lap.
Sometimes it’s wisdom.
Sometimes it’s conviction.
Sometimes it’s realizing He already answered that prayer months ago, and now there’s a lesson in what you chose to do with the answer.
Sometimes it’s God teaching you to handle differently what He blesses you with next time.
And sometimes, unfortunately, you learn that lesson the hard way.
But the beautiful part about learning the hard way is that now you know better.
And when you know better, you can choose to do better.
So I’m sharing this because I’m extremely open with y’all and honestly treat this page like my own little family. And maybe somebody else needs this realization as much as I did.
Keep praying for provision.
Keep trusting God.
Keep working.
But when He provides, remember to take care of what He entrusted you with.
Save some.
Prepare for the slower seasons.
Think about tomorrow while enjoying today.
Learn the difference between something you want right now and something you may need that money for later.
And maybe before asking, “God, why aren’t You providing?” stop for a second and look back at everything He already has.
Because that was the part that got me today.
He HAS provided for me.
Over and over and over again.
And instead of only praying for God to give me more, I also need to pray for the wisdom and discipline to properly handle what He gives me when it comes.
So that’s the lesson I’m carrying with me:
God will provide. But I also want to become the kind of person who can be trusted to steward His provision wisely.
Today humbled me a little bit, but sometimes I think we need that.
I know I did.
God is still providing.
I’m just learning to handle His provision better. 🤎
Goodnight, y’all! 🥱 If you actually read this through.. comment a 🍪 emoji lol
