09/11/2026
On August 30th, I was hospitalized and while I was lying in that hospital bed I realized I had been asking my body to keep going when it was desperately asking me to stop. And stopping is something I didn’t want to do. I’ve poured my heart into my business, so the thought of stepping away has been difficult.
All I wanted was to keep going. I wanted to keep showing up. I wanted to keep taking pictures and pretend that my body wasn’t asking me to slow down. But my body needs rest, and sometimes God asks us to surrender the very things we desperately want to hold onto. My first instinct was to say, “I’ll be fine. I can keep going.” But God has been teaching me that being strong doesn’t always mean pushing through. Sometimes being strong means surrendering.
I tried to write this while I was in the hospital. I opened my laptop and began typing, but I couldn’t make it through the second sentence. Not long after, a pastor came into my room and prayed over me. I can’t fully explain what that moment meant to me, but it felt like God was meeting me right there in that hospital room in the middle of my fear and my exhaustion. His prayer helped me realize something I had been struggling to accept. So I prayed about it for the rest of the day and little by little God gave me peace.
I have canceled all of my sessions for this month and the rest of the year, except for one session that will take place in my greenhouse studio. That will be my last session for this year. God willing, when the time is right, my first sessions back will be in my studio for Valentine’s minis. Until then, I need to allow my body to rest, recover, and fight this battle. I will still be editing the galleries from the events we already had booked.
God has reminded me that this is only the beginning of something greater He has in store for me, and I trust His plan. ❤️🩹