06/03/2026
This image.
I’ve held onto it for a long time.
It’s not some grand vista. No towering mountains. No dramatic wildlife encounter. No once-in-a-lifetime moment.
Just a sunrise. A few pelicans. A bridge connecting Iowa and Illinois.
My grandpa helped build that bridge.
This spot, along with the old mill in town, is where my photography journey really began. Long before I knew what I was doing, long before photography became part of who I am.
I made this image in May of 2023.
I had driven home to surprise my mom for Mother’s Day. For whatever reason, I felt pulled to make that trip. She was completely surprised when I showed up.
That morning, I was out before sunrise with my camera. I wandered around town making photographs, and this ended up being the last frame I took before packing up and heading to my parents’ house to say goodbye and hit the road.
I hugged my mom.
Told her I loved her.
Less than a month later, she was gone.
This photograph became something I never expected it to be.
It’s the last image I ever made while my family was still whole.
The last image before everything changed.
Before grief rewired the way I see the world.
Before it changed how I look at light, landscapes, wildlife, and photographs.
Before it changed my outlook, my priorities, and pieces of who I am.
My life can be divided into two chapters now: before this image, and after it.
That’s why I’ve held onto it all this time.
Because it’s more than a sunrise, some pelicans, and a bridge.
It’s the final photograph from a life I can never go back to.