12/08/2021
I have been grateful for my body lately, which is different after being so disappointed in it for long... Why can’t it get pregnant? Why do my arms give out when I am holding my baby? Why don’t I feel strong anymore? Why can’t I eat what makes me happy? Why is it always causing me so much pain? On and on…
But just in the last 2 months I have had
bad endo flare ups
Nausea
Insomnia
Bladder spasms
Fatigue everywhere
Extreme bloating
Constant back and neck pain
Numb arms
Panic attacks
Depression
Extreme diarrhea to
Extreme constipation
Kidney stones
A Bad cold
New endometriomas growing
And more…
I have taken so many meds (which I don’t normally do)
Advil
Ibuprofen
Zofran
Morphine
Lexapro
Hydrocodone
Flowmax
Teradol
Miralax
Smooth move tea
Constipation suppositories
Rectiade
DayQuil
NyQuil
Sambucol
And more…
And guess what. I am still standing.
I have been working out 2-3 times a week, chasing my toddler, shooting and editing 60+ shoots, many holiday parties, multiple trips, cooking cleaning, appointments, taking care of myself when I can.
I am grateful my body got me through alllllll of that the last two months. And all it’s gotten me through the last 6 years.
Grateful + tired.