05/15/2022
I thank God for our tiny big (almost 15 lbs already!) rainbow baby every day 🌈✨💫 For those who don’t know, rainbow baby is one that comes after a previous loss. We had a miscarriage before Nolan. In addition to the devastation of it in itself, it makes the following pregnancy a lot more challenging. It robs you of some of the joy. For me it meant holding my breath at every doctor’s visit, waiting longer to announce the pregnancy, using the baby heart monitor whenever I had a terrifying thought, counting days to viability and being very scared during the days of false labor.
When I look at him, I am reminded how lucky I am. Becoming a parent is a gift and a privilege. I will never take it for granted no matter how hard the sleepless nights and the crying episodes are.
