10/03/2025
This year has been a hard time of transition for myself.
I walked on a line,
set by others,
unsure of where I stood,
but always remember
STAND ON THE LINE.
I loved with my heart on the line,
proving I was good enough,
unaware of what that was,
between sufficient and perfect,
but always remember,
TRY HARDER, LOVE MORE.
The darker side of the moon,
lost in your stars,
my life and emotions became the black hole,
leading down to darkness, confusion,
but always remember,
THAT THEY DESERVE YOUR LIGHT.
That is what my inner person would tell myself, and I am learning to understand that intimacy and love and care comes from being accepted and valued for being yourself, and that is enough.
I am learning that I get to stand up for myself, and that is self love, and having boundaries is hard to have, and at first it may seem to others as hard, or frustrating or hurt, but it comes back ten fold when there is acceptance and respect.
I don’t need to keep trying harder for those who want to walk away or hurt me. I don’t want to push people to be in my life, I know that I am worthy of love, being enough despite my mistakes, I am growing.
I am starting to understand that I am a good person, who is learning and is learning what is okay and not okay. I often give people grace and love and kindness before myself. It is hard lesson, but I also deserve the grace, love and kindness I give to others for my self.
I have been feeling overwhelmed about posting and making art again, and maybe it is a sign that I need to be vulnerable again, and release these emotions and lessons.