09/29/2023
Hey guys. I’m alive.
I wanted to address my recent departure from social media. (Id also like to note that I’m not fully “back” on social media. I’m coming back in baby steps.) First I want to state my sincerest apologies to my clients and work friends. Especially for colleagues who have interceded out of the goodness of their hearts. I will be getting in touch. Second, clarity is important. I recently experienced a highly concentrated amount of personal deaths and grievances within my own family and friend’s circle in a short amount of time. I was not well equipped to handle the amount of loss I have experienced as well as the other suppressed emotions that grief and death can provoke, and the wounds that can reopen. I know it’s no excuse for dropping the ball with you all, but I just wanted you all to know it was never my intention to hurt or be malicious in any way. The accumulation of events and the status of derailing and disassociating from the world have created a form of largely surreal overthinking and a debilitating anxiety towards having these conversations via simple texts and replies but I’m working through the panic attacks, clammy hands, nausea and tunnel vision. It’s like texting anxiety on steroids. You can’t be in the same room as your phone without feeling physically sick. I am grateful for those in my circle who have remained kind and patient and have shown support through this. My mental health has been improving as I tackle this big ugly giant and I want to thank you all for being so patient with me. I will be getting back into the swing of things shortly and reach back to clients and friends over the next few days. Thank you all for your patience and I want you all to know this was a major eye opening chapter for my mental health & how to handle life, my business, and where I need healthier boundaries and going forward I will strive to keep doing and being better.
It’s not the prettiest journey but maybe when this is all over I can share what I’ve learned to my community that is so full of wonderful and supportive creatives and entrepreneurs. I’ll be damned if I can’t take this with me and use it to make it something good, if not better, and help others along the way.
