03/22/2024
A few months ago, just weeks after we moved, Matt + I lost our first pregnancy, our first child, our sweet baby. It’s been the most heart wrenching, confusing, isolating, painful and simultaneously stretching, beautiful and hopeful season of life. Moving to a new state, being far from friends, entering off season and experiencing such a great loss all at the same time felt like my life did a complete 180. Matt + I had never felt more isolated and broken.
We had so many questions of why this happened, what went wrong and why the timing of so many life changes at once could possibly be God’s plan. Throughout the last few months we have been met first hand with the peace and comfort that truly can only come from Jesus. He has met us with kindness and a soft hand to fall into on days where we simply couldn’t hold ourselves. He has given us a beautiful vision of hope for a better tomorrow. He has met us in brokenness. He has sat with us in tears. He has carried us through each day. We finally feel ready to share to not only honor our little one but maybe help others who have experienced the same loss feel less alone.
To the small few that have known, thank you for praying with and for us, sending flowers, both flying across the country and walking across the street to literally sit in the pit with us, checking in, calling and for ultimately being everything we needed. It feels strange to try to go on with life on a social media platform as if nothing has changed when quite literally everything has. I’ve always shared my life here, not just my love for weddings and photo. It feels wrong to just skip over this major part of my life and it feels unfair to our baby to not talk about the joy this pregnancy brought us. (Continued in comments)