08/13/2023
LONG MESSAGE
What does it mean to lose faith? I’ve always been questioning ever since leaving college what my dream really was. Does it make sense that months after college, I had no energy to continue with wedding photography or videography? That all my passion was drained? I thought to myself, if I have lost passion that means the dream was never there?
Well about two years after college. I have realized. 1. I put everything before my relationship with Christ 2. I’m scared to death to have a career in what I really want to do.
So what does it look like to struggle in a career and become restless filled with anxiety about the future? It looks like putting your identity to what you do. It looks like sleepless nights. It looks like putting your anxiety on other things instead of going to the root of this issue.
God calls us His. God tells us we are not the gods of our life, and that darkness does exist - but He will help us through it
So first year after college I was extremely confused and went into a deep form of losing interest in weddings. I had no interest.
Second year after college, I searched for Christ in desperation. Gave all things to Him. Gave over my identity of matching my career with who I am. And surrendered.
And for a while, after praying and just telling God how scared I am, and have always been of the instability of being a wedding photographer & videographer - I cried out to Him & He has told me to simply have faith in Him.
For whatever you believe, know this. I didn’t grow up Christian. I didn’t go to a church. I didn’t chase after Him in high school or college. It’s kind of crazy to me how God has worked into my life - and that I’m a follower of Jesus, I never wanted to be - I fought against it
But that’s what our God does. He shows up. He sets us free. He tells us to have faith in his plans.
Thank you God for all that you are doing in my life!
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.