07/18/2020
Let’s talk ptsd and emotional/psychological abuse. Some big signs of emotional abuse are consistent lying, shaming any feelings you have in response to their manipulation, calling you crazy for not trusting dishonesty, denying they ever said/did something even though you have proof/remember it clearly, their actions clearly don’t match their words, or that you’re told you have to be okay with their lying all to avoid any and all accountability. When you’re in an emotionally or psychologically abusive environment you can have varying side effects such as anxiety, hypersensitivity, breaking down easily, and distrust and can start to lose grip on reality. Abuse of any kind is NEVER your fault, you do not deserve it. Try and recognize it for what it is and walk away.
I grew up knowing abuse, of all kinds. Whether experiencing it myself as early as I can remember or witnessing it. I’ve recently learned how your body can hold onto trauma and recognize future abuse by sending off signals, often disguising itself as anxiety before your brain clues in. It’s where we have to learn to trust our gut or initial instincts, they’re rarely wrong. I just got out of a situation I was in for two years where I was shamed and called crazy or difficult for confronting shady behaviours or manipulative tendencies. Where I was made to feel crazy or less than for not trusting somebody that lied to myself and others constantly and told me that I had to be ok with it. I stopped being myself. It wasn’t until it came to a head and everything I had been feeling was validated by the truth, that I saw it for what it was even though this person continued and continues to lie. The red flags and warning signs were always there, but I ignored them. Learn from me and don’t ignore what doesn’t feel right. Just because you can see the best in people does NOT mean you always should or that it’s always there. If something feels off, walk away. It will bring out the worst in you and take a toll on your psyche like you could never believe. Save yourself, do not keep them in your life, you deserve the best and I promise you’ll feel lighter and more like yourself than you ever have before 💛